What to do with a bi-lateral brain.

Most of the time I consider myself pretty right-brained. I love the arts. I love music, movies, pictures, paintings and anything of the sort where I see talent and feel emotionally moved by it. However, as most of you know, I have this new career that I am developing(for which I have an equal passion and probably more talent.... unfortunately), and I have found myself lately, in a position where my "right-brain" life is being totally eclipsed by it's "left-brained" counterpart-- and it is causing me to feel restless. It seems that the studying and working to become a better trainer has left me nothing in the way of an outlet for this other side of my psyche.

Mostly, I'm sure because I have a real tendency to take on too much and then something always gets shorted, ....usually it's my sleep. But also, because I just can't seem to figure out how to turn one off, and let the other one loose.

Like writing for example. Some of you know that I love to write. I do it a lot in my spare time. (or at least I used to). I don't share a lot of it with very many people, but it is definitely a passion. But, after a 12 hour day of observing people's quirky and disfunctional squats and laying face down in a biomechanics book to try to figure out what's wrong with them, I can't seem to come home and sit in front of my computer, and all the sudden feel inspired to write a poem, or even produce a creative blog post. I want to, it's just not there.

It's like it has to be one or the other in some way that I don't completely understand, and it is burying me.

I should be looking to God for balance I know, but I don't even know where the imbalance lies or even for sure that there is one. Maybe you do have to pick one or the other. Maybe you can't cohabitate in both worlds like that. Maybe I'm just exhausted and I'm rambling. I don't know.

Anyway, that's my life lately. I don't write, I haven't sat and watched an awesomely produced flick with a killer script, or been to look at a jaw-dropping piece of art in months......but I did spend 18 hours this weekend learning some pretty incredible stuff in the way of Alpha and Gamma motor neurons and their effect on reflex mediated stiffness.

No whitty banter to offer these days, but I sure can give you the low down on why your right shoulder won't externally rotate.